Don’t get me wrong, I love being pregnant. I love feeling this tiny little human kick around my intestines like they were a soccer ball. I love when Aaron puts his hand on my belly and can feel the baby kick as well and I feel better knowing that he is able to connect to the pregnancy by feeling our little one move. Despite loving this feeling of growing this new life, there are so many things that I miss about not being pregnant.
- I miss not worrying about every little ache and pain that occurs inside or outside my body.
At around 22 weeks I was told I had what the call a uterine window or thinning of my previous C-section scar which puts me at a higher risk for a uterine rupture. This was not news I was exactly prepared for. Just like that my hopes of having a VBAC went out the window and now had to prepare myself for not only a repeat C-section but one that would probably occur earlier then 39 weeks. Every time I feel a Braxton Hicks contraction or a pulling along my old C-section scar I worry that my uterus is thinning even more. I also worry that every time I go into an ultrasound (every 2 weeks) that they will say things look worse and I need to be put on bed rest.
2. I miss eating and drinking whatever I want without worrying that I’m going to poison my child with listeria or caffeine.
You hear all these horror stories about what not to eat while pregnant with the top ones being (for me anyways) deli meat, sushi and caffeine. I love coffee and probably drink far more then I should even when I am not pregnant. I somehow managed to cut that back to 2 cups a day but even then I still feel like a horrible mom for consuming the devil that is caffeine. It will be nice to be able to have my latte and not feel guilty about it afterwards. Also what I wouldn’t give to have a giant cold cut sub without heating the deli meat!
3. I miss wine (yes it deserves it’s own category)
Just like coffee, I love wine. There is nothing better then coming home at the end of a tough day in the Emergency Department and having a glass of wine. Clearly I was able to give it up for the pregnancy but it doesn’t mean that I don’t miss it terribly and can’t wait to have a glass once this baby is here. I will be stocking up on Trader Joe’s Secco cranberry as soon as I can get to my nearest Trader Joe’s. (And yes I do know that alcohol can pass through breast milk and have no intention of guzzling an entire bottle…as much as I may want to).
4. I miss being comfortable when I sleep.
I understand I will still most likely not be sleeping ever again once baby arrives but when I do I can’t wait to sleep on my stomach again! It feels like it has been a very long time since I have had the utter joy of rolling onto my stomach and sleeping that way all night long and I yearn for the day when I am able to do so again. Having a 6 year old who sleeps through the nigh (and has for years now) has been amazing so it will be a change to be up at night with an infant.
5. I’m going to miss my son being my only child.
We have a blended family in which I have a 6 year old son and my boyfriend has a 10 year old daughter however for a while it has been just me and my son Hayden. I will miss being able to provide him with my undivided attention and slightly worried how he will react to this change. I know he will make a great big brother and he already tells me how much he loves his little sister but I know that once baby comes things will change and it won’t just be Hayden and I anymore.
I am sure there are more things that I miss about not being pregnant but for today that is all I can think of. What do you miss most about not being pregnant? Leave a comment and let me know!